Everyone has to make a decision.

I have been so blessed to grow up in a strong Christian home. I’ve been taught from a young age about the bible, God, Jesus Christ etc. And having that early Christian influence has been so good.

I pretty much became a Christian as early as I can remember… That was a long time ago. But did I really understand what it meant to be a Christ follower? To obey Him, love Him, and do everything for Him? Probably not.

I was kind of the kid who just went with the flow; “Oh my family is a Christian family, I guess that’s me too!”. That’s all fine and good, but where’s the heart choice? The heart choice to follow Him?

Up until this past November (2020), I’d say I was a Christian, but a very… worldly Christian? Very superficial maybe? Something along those lines.

Then in November it all seemed to change for me. Starting in June or July, I was having hard friendship issues. (I won’t be going into detail as It is probably not relevant). I felt like one of my closest friendships was starting to disintegrate before my very eyes. It was scary. And for 6 years, this friendship had (at least I thought) stayed strong and resilient. But over the course of a few months things drastically changed.

I didn’t know what to do, what to think; what I could do to make things better. I felt like it was my fault and like I should’ve been able to salvage something out of the friendship that had lasted so long. The situation occupied my thoughts and emotions constantly. I even started getting mad at my siblings for no reason, because I felt overwhelmed by what was going on.

(I don’t feel comfortable admitting that that’s how I felt. I’m being quite vulnerable here people 😂)

The more I tried to be in control, the worse my stress got; kind of funny how that works huh?

Very long story short, In November I decided that it was time to stop. Let go of whatever I thought I was holding on to or controlling. I felt like God was saying to me, “What are you doing? Isn’t this my job? Isn’t this why I’m here? To help? Let me take it from here; it’ll all end up okay.”.

It was quite an interesting moment actually… One minute I’m trying to be in control of whatever I could, and the next I was sitting there, feeling an amazing peace about it all. That’s when I fully put my trust in Christ and what He could do for me.

If that situation hadn’t happened, I probably still wouldn’t have a relationship with the Lord. I read this verse last night:

And He said to me “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in your weakness.”

2 Corinthians 12:9

When I’m at my lowest point, overwhelmed and stressed out, that’s when You can feel Him the most. If you take the time to stop and listen for Him.

I believe that no matter where you’re coming from, how much Christian influence you had as a kid, nor where you grew up, everyone comes to a point when they have to choose who they’re going to follow in life.

That point for me, happened last year. What about you? Have you truly made up your mind on who you are going to follow in your life?

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  1. I have been struggling with the same thing actually; I’ve almost “shut myself down” from making new friends because there is a trust factor that I lost back in November.
    I will keep you in my prayers!

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  2. I struggled with this a few months ago but now I struggle with making friends and I don’t have any friends except blogger friends and I feel down. Pray for me.

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  3. I think faith is one of the most beautiful things in the world. It was so nice to read about your personal journey, and while I am still discovering it, I think having a Lord is like having this pillar of strength that will never fall down. Great post, Amber!

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    1. Thanks Maya!
      My faith in Jesus Christ, The Lord, certainly means so much to me. And I would sacrifice my life for Him, because that is exactly what He did for me and for you! He took our place and died, when it should have been us! I am forever grateful for that!!! ❤

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  4. So true and so awesome, Amber! I’m so sorry about that friendship, yet I’m so glad that you have been able to learn something from that experience. I also know that losing friendships is painful, and its INCREDIBLY tough to not freak out and go into “friendship-recovery mode”, especially when said friend is dear to your heart, but it’s worth it to learn that God is our friend too, and if we’ve done all we can, it’s time for Him to take over! ❤🤗 Have an awesome day!!

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    1. Thank you, Makayla! I am sad that the friendship had to end, but the Lord knew what needed to happen! It’s so amazing how confused I felt when I was trying to control everything, but then felt so much peace when I let it all go!
      I’m still struggling with trusting new friendships/making new friends though, so that’s something I’ll be working on for a while. 🙃
      I hope you have a great day as well!! ❤ ❤

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      1. Ohh yeah, that IS a difficulty. Our bible study group split a while back and I missed my old friends so much. We’re still in touch, but obviously it’s not quite the same, and it’s taught me to hold my relationships loosely and trust God for the outcome. 🤗 (although it is So. Difficult. to do! 😅)

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  5. How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the word of God. Those steps are directed by the Lord!

    Not gonna lie, I’ve struggled here lately with so many battles. Ever since being called to preach and I’m on probation for becoming a deacon. Every day seems uphill.

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    1. The Lord for sure has a calling for everyone, and those who follow Him should definitely strive to find it!

      I believe God places us in difficult seasons for so many different reasons. When you’re in the midst of the storm, it is terrible and seems like nothing is going right. But once the storm is over and you’re at the end of the tunnel, you’ll begin to see just how much that season grew you as a person, and in your relationship with Christ!
      Jesus never said that life here on earth would be easy. In fact, it’s probably even harder for us sometimes because we are followers of Christ! But He promised us that He will be right here with us through it all. 🙂
      Keep pushing up that hill, the view at the top will be beautiful!

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  6. This is so true. I guess I’m kind of at that point now. Like, I had my parents faith for a while, but obviously that isn’t enough for me now. I was fairly strong in my testimony for a while, but since the pandemic, I’ve kinda been in a bad place(mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc…)
    Great post!

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    1. I’m so glad you can relate to this post Diamond; I think a lot of people are at that place, and I want to let them know that I was to. And that as you decide to follow Christ for yourself, you will begin your own journey with Him, that will be completely unique to who you are, and who He created you to be!
      I will be praying for you! ❤

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