Everyone has to make a decision.

I have been so blessed to grow up in a strong Christian home. I’ve been taught from a young age about the bible, God, Jesus Christ etc. And having that early Christian influence has been so good.

I pretty much became a Christian as early as I can remember… That was a long time ago. But did I really understand what it meant to be a Christ follower? To obey Him, love Him, and do everything for Him? Probably not.

I was kind of the kid who just went with the flow; “Oh my family is a Christian family, I guess that’s me too!”. That’s all fine and good, but where’s the heart choice? The heart choice to follow Him?

Up until this past November (2020), I’d say I was a Christian, but a very… worldly Christian? Very superficial maybe? Something along those lines.

Then in November it all seemed to change for me. Starting in June or July, I was having hard friendship issues. (I won’t be going into detail as It is probably not relevant). I felt like one of my closest friendships was starting to disintegrate before my very eyes. It was scary. And for 6 years, this friendship had (at least I thought) stayed strong and resilient. But over the course of a few months things drastically changed.

I didn’t know what to do, what to think; what I could do to make things better. I felt like it was my fault and like I should’ve been able to salvage something out of the friendship that had lasted so long. The situation occupied my thoughts and emotions constantly. I even started getting mad at my siblings for no reason, because I felt overwhelmed by what was going on.

(I don’t feel comfortable admitting that that’s how I felt. I’m being quite vulnerable here people 😂)

The more I tried to be in control, the worse my stress got; kind of funny how that works huh?

Very long story short, In November I decided that it was time to stop. Let go of whatever I thought I was holding on to or controlling. I felt like God was saying to me, “What are you doing? Isn’t this my job? Isn’t this why I’m here? To help? Let me take it from here; it’ll all end up okay.”.

It was quite an interesting moment actually… One minute I’m trying to be in control of whatever I could, and the next I was sitting there, feeling an amazing peace about it all. That’s when I fully put my trust in Christ and what He could do for me.

If that situation hadn’t happened, I probably still wouldn’t have a relationship with the Lord. I read this verse last night:

And He said to me “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in your weakness.”

2 Corinthians 12:9

When I’m at my lowest point, overwhelmed and stressed out, that’s when You can feel Him the most. If you take the time to stop and listen for Him.

I believe that no matter where you’re coming from, how much Christian influence you had as a kid, nor where you grew up, everyone comes to a point when they have to choose who they’re going to follow in life.

That point for me, happened last year. What about you? Have you truly made up your mind on who you are going to follow in your life?